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It’s that thing that we look at down a road, not knowing where it will lead, but we keep going because what else can we do. There is no way to bypass it, it’s something that everyone has in their lives. Yet, why is it so difficult to wrestle with, to try and get some good strikes in and feel like you’re ahead?

I’d like to think that I’m a planner. I look ahead; ready to make a game plan for what comes next. That’s just how I am. Maybe it started in middle school when teachers made us use an actual planner to copy down due dates, quizzes and tests, attempting to mold organized students. It naturally turned into a habit. Now, there are many things that I start to plan that can’t be written down with a due date next to it. Plans like moving to New York or the start date of my dream job can be made, but factors outside of our own control can dictate when that happens, creating a cloud of uncertainty.

That uncertainty makes me want to pull all the bed sheets above my head and blast some Hilary Duff circa 2003. Not even the worlds best planner could plan around what uncertainty brings.

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With summer starting to wrap up and fall fast approaching, I look back and feel as if I’ve been in a state of limbo. I just accomplished one really huge thing, yet I’m ready to start accomplishing something even bigger. I’m on the edge of my seat, ready to start my career in my dream city. I have a plan; I’m ready to make the jump, but that uncertainty creeps back up.

Here’s the thing, some things will always be out of your control, no matter how far in advance you plan. It can be easy to let the unknown and the uncertain hold you back and keep you put. However, you can’t let it stop you. Crawl back up from under those sheets, give Hilary a break and keep going.

Embrace it.

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One thought on “uncertainty

  1. Such a beautiful post. Thank you for sharing these words and relatable illustrations! I like to look at change and uncertainty as an adventure, even when it scares me, to try and lessen the struggle of it. x


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